Woke up to the new fuel tanks being put in by Stewart’s, it’s been noisy, dirty, and had been a long weekend, but the guys were moving along. I was worried about breathing this all in and was having a lot of heartburn, so bad I had been throwing up the other night all night…

Carrying around my two heavy suitcases was like carrying around all the pain I thought I had closure with, but all these wounds are being ripped open once again as I struggle with the awareness of all the new lies and violence I have to deal with and come to terms with once more. I…

It was cold and rainy this morning, I didn’t sleep all that well and was wet from the rain and wind hitting the porch making everything damp and cold. The pounding and digging from the new gas pumps being put in by the new Stewarts woke me early and I knew it was better to…

“You can fuck all my deputies,” laughing he said after getting nasty. No one will bother you there then. He was referring up to our Lakehouse. He was asking me out, but then he got more and more sexually aggressive when I thanked him at first for asking me out, but then he started in…

It was starting to get hot even at 10am as I sat at Stewarts and thought of being up to the Sacandaga Lake. I liked sitting outside at the new outdoor patio now and could get a toasted bagel and cream cheese and some hard-boiled eggs. I was getting stronger and felt good that my…

“I’m going to kill you,” he said. I stood outside Armory Grill and wondered why everything seemed hazy, I didn’t feel right and only had one drink there, but it was liquor and I didn’t really like liquor. I had a few Beers before I went there, but I felt strange. I came to the…

It’s been so hot the last few days, I was grateful I had one of the last remaining workout tank tops I had. I didn’t have any other things left from all the gym clothes I had brought over the years. Expensive ones I got on sale at Marshall’s, beautiful high-end ones that I got…

It rained all night, I didn’t sleep too bad though. I was grateful for the porch roof at the abandoned house I was still sleeping at. I was regularly watching sweeps being done on homeless communities in NY and across the country. The despicable way the homeless were being treated and criminalized I was learning…

“Ma’am, you’re going to have to vacate the property,” the officer said. Bentley and I had just headed down to the lake to wash up. I felt bad he had not yet been in the water. My other two dogs had played at the lake, but he hadn’t been able to. This was going to…